Money...Money...Money

I need prayer!  I've given God complete control over my financial situation and I am terrified.  For years I have made my fiances only my problem and not God's.  I stressed over my bills, my debt, and my sometimes unreliable car a lot more than I needed to.  I had the mindset of this is my problem, not anyone else's; I was going to be the one to fix the mess I made.  God taught me otherwise very quickly...for the second time.

I was unemployed from September to January.  That would be the second time I went without a job for extended period of time (the first time it was for a year and a half).  I'll be honest it hurt my pride...a lot.  For the second time in my life I wasn't able to support myself like I have since I was 16.  I was very, very sacred.  I was terrified to find out what my future held.  So I did what I always do...I prayed.  I read my Bible every morning and then I sat on my bed or face down on the floor for about an hour everyday.  I prayed like i had never had prayed before.  I prayed to my God because I had once again come to the end of myself.  The devil had led me away from God and had his way with me. (My Promises of Purity touches on what i fully mean.)  In my time of prayer God revealed to me everything I needed to let go of in order for Him to have full control over my life.  So I lifted up all of those things to Him, which included my finances.

When I got hired at RGIS, my time of unemployment over, I prayed that God would help with everything I needed such as my bills paid, gas to get to work, and such; I prayed that he would provide everything I wanted like going to Power's with my brother and sisters, new clothing, and to have a bit money to save.  When I got my first weeks schedule I was very worried that hours they gave me would not be enough to provide for my needs and wants.  So I went to the Lord in prayer.  I was literally down on my hands and knees begging God to give me hours at work so I would have enough to pay my cell phone bill, renew the tabs on my car, and have enough gas to get to work in the coming weeks.

God answered my pray.

I nearly cried because my paycheck gave me enough money to tithe, renew my tabs, pay my cell phone bill, and have enough for gas.

I'm still terrified of what's going to happen in the coming, but I know who to turn to when my fear gets the better of me.  I will continue praying and giving God control until my finances are where they need to be.  I don't know how of this is going to work out, especially my debts; but I can't wait to see what God is going to do for me.

God is good.